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This layout was generated with petrapixel's layout generator.Clear your cache if it looks busted. Reader I'm SADDDDDD idk if that title made it clear I'm SADDDDDDDD! I wanted to make my second update count by adding a music player, and I think in the process of debugging the last and most promising (in my head) copied code I fucked up launch.json in a way that's probably easy to fix once spotted but represents a headache I refuse to give myself until after I've finished my paper this week (why am I writing a paper if I'm no longer a student, you ask? to which I would answer: I am trying to reenter academia and this is part of the apps process 4me bc my best work is under the word count and I also want to add a new spin on the old and also I may hate myself). But hey, now I'll be able to post comments on the main neocities site! And respond to you lovely people! I JUST NEED TO GET MY MUSIC PLAYER READY. Heartbreaking.
While I get things going:
I now kind of want to keep the anonymity of this site (laughs in gargantuan digital footprint while existing in a surveillance state) since the whole thing feels freer and better lent to creativity if I do. And also some of the yume voices I thought I had left behind in my teens are coming back and I think that might be fun to indulge even if it's just because the source material I was fixated on pissed me off so bad I tried to rehaul it entirely while still keeping to the existing in-world structures/systems/power hierarchies/etc. I yearn to be unapologetically weird. Still I do wonder if focusing on transformative/fan work will distract me from other fun creative challenges since that fictional world itself is kind of a comfort zone like a known sandbox a solid base I only have to alter not create yk? But maybe life is just about balance!
Anyway. I need to get on making multiple pages. I just haven't had the time yet. But I totally wanna make an OCs page!!! I have a web of characters I've been cooking up whom I've established certain plots for but it's the kind of situation where I really truly don't know who should take precedence or whose is the 'main' storyline, or if it should be a series of short stories? But I know who my lovelies are and I'm dying to share them. Along with my current D&D character- I'm playing a character I cooked up at 13 for a campaign right now! Beefy butch dragonborn monk (played by an unathletic femme human). She was born out of spite, as a great many things are. I love her.
Also: I just finished reading what I needed to from George Bataille's Death and Sensuality. Note that I have not read it in full but I got what I needed to, I think, in order to write a better analysis! The linkage between death and eroticism which makes them fall under similar taboos is interesting to think about. For fun I've been listening to GRRM's Clash of Kings because I like political intrigue and I realized the original books Game of Thrones is based off were actually peak court drama. On my TBR are 17776 and Butler's Parable of the Sower. Watching junk TV right now (season 2 of Bridgerton which is the only Bridgerton I've watched and probably ever will watch, the Sharmas are simply that special to me). Still, I'm trying to think of a good movie to watch soon. I kinda wanna watch Come Drink With Me, or Blade, or just a good evocative and fun action movie. Send recs if you have any? Kk I'm done here for neow peace OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!